I love it. I LOVE IT. I LOVE IT!!!
Talking about crown molding, fireplaces, utility bills, square footage and closet space is my new favorite thing. I cannot get enough. Seeing apartment #6 later today!
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My “future home” pins are about to become a reality..at least a few of them. :)
A year ago I decided what I have is better than what I had.
Or what I never had, depending on your point of view.
The high from cocaine last less than two hours. A destroyed life for a two hour high? heartbreaking.
I am one blessed girl. I am blessed because I have found someone so truly wonderful. Sometimes he makes me so mad I giggle and cry, often at the same time, but that man brings me more happiness than anything. (Not joy, joy is from the LORD, happiness is from my boy.) In four months it will have been two years (three years since we met!). That’s insane! I’m so incredibly happy with where life is and where it is going.
Don’t have that yet? I can tell you that for the year between going back to church after a long absence from God and before my college freshman year, I prayed that God would prepare my heart. I prayed that He would help me release the past, turn troubles over to Him, I prayed that He would help me see myself as a beautiful creation and that I would love myself as much as He loved me. I prayed that as I grew as a Christian woman He would focus me on Him and lead me to The One. And it worked. I really focused on me. I focused on being happy, loving myself and figuring out what I knew I deserved out of a relationship. And then, and this was the REALLY difficult part, I waited on His timing. Not his, like my bf’s but His, because I knew that all of that time as just friends, no matter how torturous, was for a reason. It created the foundation. When you do what you love, you will find someone when you’re suppose to.
Today Molly ate all kinds of things. And my boyfriend hates me. And I haven’t eaten. :(
But tomorrow is a new month. Also April fools day.
With jealously, which is such an ugly emotion. Not jealously related to my relationship, just jealous of worldly things. I just feel like I’m working towards nothing. I work a lot. I’m working towards another promotion, I’m working towards another 4.0. These things are so close and yet I feel little satisfaction. I want to have a stable salary. I want a nice home. And yet I have everything I need. I am so loved and I love. What a blessing. I know that the things I’m working towards will be mine eventually, but it’s hard to not get hung up on these material desires.
There’s just something about that smile.
So I’m going through all of my Facebook friends, and I’m checking people out, looking at friends from highschool and whatnot, and I see this guy that I used to mess around with my senior year. I hadn’t come out fully, not everyone knew, and he was… “curious”. He never talked about it to anyone,…
My favorite part of this: “I hope he’s happy living a lie and being fat.” BHAHAHA poor girl…
You mean…I’m not engaged yet?
so I should stop reading wedding blogs?
I. Just. Can’t. Help. Myself.
But mostly, I WILL BE 21 IN LESS THAN TWELVE HOURS!
I forget to blog when things are really good.
And tonight they are REALLY good. YIPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
This summer will be the most fantastic time of my life.
<3
been in a relationship for a year and a half today.
today I woke up and didn’t want to get out of bed. I love days like this. oh..wait..i fully do not.
And I had to ask my mom for money. again. I am failing at life as of late.
